I really can get quite shy. It is an extra effort to start conversation sometimes. Either that or I'm not really very fond of mankind. Just consider me an expert at small talk. And I'm so incredibly good at making people feel comfortable with me that they start telling me their secrets... On the first meeting. Whilst I, on the other hand, am squirming deep inside and exerting so much effort to appear like I love where I am.

Don't get me wrong though, it's not like that all the time. I just wish people would stop thinking that they are the most interesting creatures in the world.

Then again, You have a blog dedicated to nothing else but the sharing of the most mundane things that run through, around, and out of my mind. har. Guess we're all vain huh.

Also, been thinking a lot about selfishness. It's so easy to ask people to understand us, but it's so goshdarn difficult to get ourselves to understand other people.

I don't want to be selfish!


This may sound cruel. But. Sometimes I wish you would go through something so heavy, so deep that it will change you forever. Something that will cut you through and through. Something that will hurt you, pull you under, push you out. It's gotten to the point that I think the only thing that can change you is an event that will pull out your reality from under you. You are so freakishly self-absorbed. I love you so much. And I wish you knew how much this love hurts.

It's been over a year since I shut down my blog-life, and I think that since, more than anything, I'm really a writer at heart, I've really missed having an outlet to mindlessly ejaculate all my thoughts.

So if you give a rat's ass and are wondering what I've been up to, here's a very self-absorbed update: NOTHING.

I am really trying my hardest to squeeze those sleeping braincells and write something nice and sensible. Apparently, I am so goshdarn lazy to update my Multiply. Some of my friends doesn't have a Multiply account so I sign up for LJ. Well yeah, I've LJ before but I trashed them. I get so boring sometimes.

Anyhoo, to those who want to hate me here are some reasons:


→ i don't talk to strangers. unless you are DROP DEAD INTERESTING.

→ i always have tantrums. entering my room without asking for my permission is a BIG NO-NO.

→ i love the ticking sound of the keyboard :)

→ i sEriOusLy hAtE tHiS pOh xe iT's vERy AnNoYiNg. LyK OmG!

→ i want to be reminded that i am loved every single day :)

→ i want silence in a long ride. cos that's the only time i can daydream.

→ i am a frustrated writer.

→ i get my nails done every other week by hook or by crook!

→ i enjoy walking although i whine a lot :)

→ i am a whiner and a self confessed brat -- you'll hate me, promise.

→ my text messages and IM's are smartly written.

→ my body is liquor-free :)

→ i awfully sprained my foot once and now my left foot is freakishly smaller than the other. I SHIT YOU NOT.

→ oh yeah, i curse a lot.

→ Liam Gallagher is freakin' HOT.

→ i adore hippies but i hate groupies :)

→ i was a catholic wildchild.

→ i had a tattoo on my lower hip when i was 16.

→ and pierced my tounge when i was 18. i don't have it anymore.

→ i am tactless.

→ i don't answer anonymous phone calls.

→ adopted Bulakenya :)

→ i am inches tall but i'm really feisty.

→ i am very snob.

→ i am sarcastic at times.

→ make me laugh and i will love you forever :)

→ but it's really hard to please me.

→ i forgive easily but i NEVER forget.

→ i have two lovely dogs and i swear to God i will cry a river if you hurt them :(

→  i still believe in faeries and sparkling pixie dust :)

→ i am not friendly -- well, to some :)


There.

I'll try to post more entries soon.